Post #41 - Just Last March...
My apologies...I said I would post more often, but sometimes it just seems difficult to post...and it doesn't get any easier. Then add all the endless amount of schoolwork on top of that.
I was just thinking that Jasmin turned 2 this past Saturday and it was just a year ago when we were all together with Mama at the hall celebrating her 1st birthday, which was by far one of my favourite parties ever. How time flies, huh?
That was the last time we were all together. That was the last time I hugged Mama. That was the last time I laughed with him. That was actually also the last time I talked to him properly...the sad part is he left us in July and yet I had let months go by without seeing him properly. Nothing can make up for that now. I'm trying to come to terms with that because for me that was one of the hardest things I had to deal with.
And now if I let a week go by without going over to Ma guys' house to see everyone and catch up with them, I feel a big void inside. If too much time passes since Masi and I have had a nice phone conversation, it feels weird. If I haven't seen Harinder at home because he's been working back to back with his jobs, I have to call him at work even if I have nothing to really talk about - but I usually do find something to whine about. If I haven't seen Roger because I'm too busy with school and our schedules at home conflict, I think about the next day I'll see him at home sipping his chai while sitting at the computer desk. If I haven't spoken to Jimmy in a few days on MSN, I wonder if he's even noticed that I haven't had a chance to come online even if we do just talk about random things anyways.
The point?...I hope we all learn to become closer and stay that way so that we don't miss each other the way I missed Mama in those months.
Love Karen
I was just thinking that Jasmin turned 2 this past Saturday and it was just a year ago when we were all together with Mama at the hall celebrating her 1st birthday, which was by far one of my favourite parties ever. How time flies, huh?
That was the last time we were all together. That was the last time I hugged Mama. That was the last time I laughed with him. That was actually also the last time I talked to him properly...the sad part is he left us in July and yet I had let months go by without seeing him properly. Nothing can make up for that now. I'm trying to come to terms with that because for me that was one of the hardest things I had to deal with.
And now if I let a week go by without going over to Ma guys' house to see everyone and catch up with them, I feel a big void inside. If too much time passes since Masi and I have had a nice phone conversation, it feels weird. If I haven't seen Harinder at home because he's been working back to back with his jobs, I have to call him at work even if I have nothing to really talk about - but I usually do find something to whine about. If I haven't seen Roger because I'm too busy with school and our schedules at home conflict, I think about the next day I'll see him at home sipping his chai while sitting at the computer desk. If I haven't spoken to Jimmy in a few days on MSN, I wonder if he's even noticed that I haven't had a chance to come online even if we do just talk about random things anyways.
The point?...I hope we all learn to become closer and stay that way so that we don't miss each other the way I missed Mama in those months.
Love Karen
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12:15 a.m.
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